wonderball

      One thing that I have always found fascinating is that time right before the sun sets for the evening; the time when it's dark out but you can still see perfectly clearly, almost more clearly than when the sun is out. (this is where it gets weird) Also in this most beautiful time of evening I noticed that if the lights are on in an establishment, let's say a gas station, you can see directly into the gas station and everything that is going on, almost like it's a performance being put on and I'm the audience, but the "actors" don't know they have an audience.

      Back in good ole' Nebster (nebraska) I remember driving down the street and being able to see directly into people's houses. Many people would just go about paying attention to traffic and other nonsense, but I always find myself continuing to stare into people's homes; it feels like I'm watching a little tiny silent film of someones daily life. Since moving to the city I notice this phenomena (ifyouwill) a lot more often, being that the buildings are so tall you can usually look directly out your window and look directly into someone else's. It kind of makes me feel sneaky and God like, to be able to watch people when they don't know they're being watched, not in a creepy way though. It makes me wonder mostly about who the people are, where they come from, why they're in that office or studio working so late, what they're working on, how they got to the point in their life that they work on a huge Mac in a studio at 12:00 at night in New York City. I swear I'm not a psycho stalker or murderer or something, I just like not knowing and wondering. Seeing all these people either in their apartment or office or studio makes me feel so small and tiny, it's a nice reminder that even though sometimes "it's a small world" its actually "a really-fucking-huge world" with billions of people with different lives, problems, stresses, and worries. It's pretty humbling, and I like it.

      Okay enough with that philosophical bollocks. If anyone is interested, my life is anything but exciting nowadays (other than the fact  that I live in midtown Manhattan) all I do is sleep, eat, try to teach myself how to study, go to yoga, drink coffee, and stay up way later than necessary. Woo! And trust me, I'm not complaining. It's quite a lovely little existence, and I know in the future everything is going to be A LOT more stressful. So Cheers to that, and also Cheers to iOS 5!

au revoir

-AP